I’m doing some remedial posting on the train right now because the litany of social engagements coupled with my struggles organising a mood board in preparation for my upcoming house renovation took up quite a bit of time the past few days.

To be honest, I’m having to remind myself to enjoy the design process quite frequently. There’s the worry of wasting money, worry of spending and landing on a design that isn’t worth it or that doesn’t stand up to the scrutiny of my friends.

It feels very daunting, but I’m gonna list out my demons in bid to slowly exorcise them:

For one, I’m really happy to get/hire a friend that I trust to help with the design and build. But with friends (and with people in general), there’s a irrational fear in me that I might be asking too much and I don’t want to come off looking like the dumb, demanding client. Furthermore, with friends, I’m not sure what to say if I disagree with the design direction and aesthetics.

For another, I don’t dare to stick to my designs and inclinations because I feel that I’m not an expert in any of this – but this leads me to waffle on my decisions, do incessant polling amongst friends and end up even more confused.